Reactor

by Niki Becker

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Reactor finds Niki Becker's early folk-rock sound evolving - along with her band - to include garage pop and soul influences. Reactor is a more collaborative effort, combining the rock background of her bandmates, Shawn Davis (Rank Strangers, Davis III) and Bart Boutwell (Landspeeder) and featuring John Crist (Dashboard Saviors) on drums along with the seemingly effortless harmonies of sisters Colleen Borgendale and Laura Borgendale. Together, they blend it all to create a sound that’s a bit Southern California summer and a bit Minnesota winter, leaving the listener with ample choices to fit their mood.

Overall, Niki Becker has found a space to fit all of her influences without losing what is uniquely her voice. Filled with intricate harmonies, sharp lyrics, and textured guitars, Reactor brings a confidence to her sound that can only come from being where you need to be in the moment.

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released June 16, 2015

Niki Becker: acoustic and electric guitars, vocals
Shawn Davis: lead guitars, bass on “Daughter”, additional percussion on “Running”, “Car, and “Introvert”, organ on “I Wanna Know”, piano on “Yesterday”
Bart Boutwell: bass
John Crist: drums
Colleen Borgendale: backing vocals
Laura Borgendale: backing vocals
Mike Wisti: organ on “Car” and “Introvert”, trumpet on “Car”

Produced by Mike Wisti and Niki Becker
Recorded at Albatross, Minneapolis, MN
and St. Joe’s, St. Paul, MN
Mastered by Jacques Wait
All songs written by Niki Becker
(all rights reserved) © 2015. BMI

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Track Name: Lens
looking through the lens
you get a different picture
the subject matter's pores
turn to tiny little pixels
proximity doesn't matter
when you're playing the photographer
zoom in to get close
use the camera to focus

your attention
your attention
your attention
you attention
please

the air around you lingers
like a sentence come out wrong
you're looking over your shoulder
to see who's all singing along
you're tapped out on connections
you're lost when you're alone
you're fumbling for questions
and you're coming up with stones

and i saw it all

looking through the lens
you get a different picture
the subject matter's pores
turn to tiny little pixels
proximity doesn't matter
when you're playing the photographer
zoom in to get close
use the camera to focus
Track Name: Reactor
walking away
walking away
from this
is all i can do
for you
for me
for us
it's the best
it's true

to take
a break
to make
some space
some room
for you
for me
it's the best
it's true

cuz i am the reactor

talking away
talking away
all these words
that we like to say
they fill up the space
they fill up the room
they take the place
of how i feel for you

cuz i am the reactor

maybe some day
i'll hold it all in
i'll know what to say
so it doesn't happen again
to you
to me
to us
but until then

i am the reactor
Track Name: Running
where's the fire?
i saw you running away
but i'm so tired
don't make me chase you, please stay

reservations
i have some for you
conversations
that you try and you try to pull me through
and i watch
as you work the words with grace
and i am touched
by the way your heart shows on your face

come to find
you're bored and without a care
you draw the line
and you find i'm standing there
Track Name: The Reminder
what a heartbreak to see
the reminder of what's new
and that's nothing, nothing, nothing
it's like we never happened and
whatever happened was
nothing, nothing, nothing

maybe enough time has passed now
and we can finally laugh about all that
maybe it's just where we are now
yeah, maybe it's just where we're at

you look so impressive
oh, me this dress is just
nothing, nothing, nothing
and it was barely felt
but the blow was surely dealt
and that's something, something, something

maybe we're all grown up now
and everything's fallen into place
maybe it's all water and bridges now
yeah, and that water's washed away every trace

maybe we're all better off now
that's probably something that's true
maybe it's okay to talk about how
what a heartbreak it is
what a heartbreak it is to see you

oh, we could save it all for next time
we could, but well, nevermind
it's nothing, nothing, nothing
Track Name: Daughter
i am the worst of all the daughters
ungrateful absentee back talker
get by on a phone call
get by on a complaint
and that ain't even all that i'll do

i might say hi if the timing's right
and i might just stop for a bit
or i might just keep walking
cuz the mood isn't right
and my moods they change on a whim

so come close if you want to
there is nothing that i will promise you
come close if you want to
but only if you want to

i'm from just down the road
i am everyone that you see everyday
and just like everyone there's something underneath
that keeps us different
that keeps us distant

so come close if you want to
there is nothing that i will promise you
come close if you want to
but only if you want to

i am the worst of all the daughters
Track Name: Car
you
you drove first
and we drove for miles and miles and miles
just a couple of crazy girls

and we
we told each other everything
and you were almost always up for anything

many times
many times we told ourselves
that although we knew the rules
as long as neither one of us would tell

that we
would sometimes go out of our way
to do exactly the opposite
of the things that we'd say

we'd take it further
we'd take it far
just far enough to say we
did that then
then we'd get back into the car

we'd take it further
we'd take it far
just far enough to say we
did that then
then we'd get back into the car

mostly
most of the time
we find ourselves
in the same space
heads crammed together for pictures
just a different time
at a different place
Track Name: I Wanna Know
there are so many things i never said
pages of thoughts that went unread
and if i have to stumble again and again
baby
baby
what gives?

once in a while i take the big step
and i let it all out, wake up with regret
oh, how many times have i wanted to say
baby
baby
i'm here

but the words never come
just a low and deafening hum

every now and then i am crystal clear
i say what i want to say
i might even hear you and
take your reasons and i hold them near
baby
baby
to me

and i find myself looking in every direction
for something to focus all my frustration on
and you're standing there out in the open
and i just let it slip

and out the words come
and out the door you run

oooh
oooh
i wanna know
i wanna know
i wanna know

so i'll tell you the lines in my usual way
they'll come stumbling out, staggered and frayed
some sort of monologue
i think you might be the only one to understand
still stick with me, baby
i'm doing the best that i can
Track Name: Safety Mode
what are you gonna do
when you find out you've missed all the cues?
and you're left there standing
like the last man clapping
when everyone else has left the room
and the bus has left for the road
and you're stuck carrying the heaviest load
your arms dangle at your side
cuz you don't know what else to do
and standing still's always your safety mode

and i'm sure
i''m certain you'll be fine
and everyone will tell you
what they always tell you
things will turn around in time

now you're
back to where things all started
shuffling around
and still broken hearted
left with less than wits about you
but still capable of finding your way around
this ever shrinking city
faces everywhere always seem
familiar almost touchable
tangible
but no one that you know

and i'm sure
i''m certain you'll be fine
and everyone will tell you
what they always tell you
things will turn around in time

now you're
stuck in what seems a never ending loop
riding the rim
around the hoop
just waiting to fall in
just waiting for someone to come around and say

that i'm sure
i'm certain you'll be fine
so i'll always tell you
what we always tell you
things will turn around in...
and i'm sure
i'm certain you'll be fine
so we'll always tell you
what we always tell you
things will turn around
things will turn around
things will turn around in time
Track Name: Leave
leave it
you just left it
you don't know
alone

and i'm sorry
that i'm angry
and i'm bitter
about it

but i can see
it all so much better now
that you're never here
when it matters to me
so please just...

and i can see
it all so much better now
that you're never here
when it matters to me
so please just
leave
Track Name: Yesterday
i saw yesterday
before it went away
i saw yesterday leave
and with it went away
all i had to say
so i just let it be

and it goes around...

i look to all the faces
of the ones i think i know
and i try to see if their smiles
are what they really mean to show
and most of them seem earnest
but then again so do i
maybe we really meant it
at the time

and it goes around...
Track Name: Introvert
i want to be the outspoken one
the one everybody waits for so the party can get started
and i enter in an outfit
one that everyone will notice for all the right reasons

i want talk in a loud volume
and say all the right things about all the right subjects
and even if i don't know
what it is i'm talking about
i want everyone to want to hear what i'm saying

but i'm an introvert
i'll be over here
blending into the background
hoping you stay far away from me
hoping you stay far away from me

i wanna dance
like no one is watching in a crowded a room
cuz i think i just might be
a pretty good dancer
and i'm dying to bust my move

but i'm an introvert
i'll be over here
bleeding into the background
hoping you stay far away from me
hoping you stay far away from me
hoping you stay far away from me
Track Name: For the Time Being
we all have hopes to hang on to
we all have little silly dreams to keep us going
if you've got someone to rest your head on
then you're twice as far along the path
so if i tell you that nothing's wrong
it just means thank you for being there to ask

so for the time being
take from this what you can
put down all your defenses
and be happy
just be happy
if you can